A journey of no expectations, unselfish thoughts of one’s self by being honest about how you see the world and then having a little bit of selfishness by saying “I really like you, I enjoy your company, I actually love your whole entire living spirit”.
That little paragraph above is the most effortless emotion and feeling in my heart and soul and it is easy to feel it, say it and what a relief my inner self-belief is still present the funny thing I would like to share with you, is this!
I never, ever, felt that it wasn’t, get out of here…
How do I explain the above emotions that I feel deeply, that is really hard for me to put it in a sentence, sigh!
Sometimes, your values obviously as time passes they rise and they fall with every moment of your existence or experience I should say, a bit like that old negative emotional sadness of being let down, feeling real, again?
However, the pain in your past only occurs to those that cannot understand you or are so selfish and negative, insecure, I could list them but, for some reason these days if I list a negative thought, it does bring me down.
But, the difference is I notice it and I let it go now!!
And guess what I can breath and smile and laugh and feel better about me and now it is okay if others don’t I am happy for me, yay at last!
The last month or so … my poor body, I felt tired, old, run down so damn spent, I really had no more gas in the tank!
Stress and your environment will definitely kill you, the age you and damn well, run that body down to just about empty and looking pretty shabby!
The heat in Australia is like shit a brick, Hot as Hell, but, I love it however, I do love airconditioning too 🙂
I have these amazing overwhelming moments of “please mother of this universe don’t let me do this solo, I am begging you, I know I would be able to but, a tiny bit of hope glimpses in and warms my heart as says, here Franny, I am giving something kind to you back will you take it…
I give you a one or two like-minded, kind, never hurt you or you them, to share your wisdom, understanding, love, trust, endless good feeling of hope and joy until the day you all die!
And the tears of joy and that relief of feeling, at last, we can be ourselves and enjoy what is left without fear, without judgement without feeling that someone is going to hurt anyone again that too I is the best gift I could give myself and those that deserve it too.
A family isn’t always about blood it can be if you’re lucky, however, if you be the best you can be by just being honest and real, never perfect, we can all have warts and parts of ourselves isn’t that great I know, I am a shit head hehe
But, that isn’t the point of this post it is that thought of being able to believe in yourself and if by any stretch of the imagination being able to have a bit of hope for others too.
This isn’t really what I wanted to say but, who cares… you get the gist….of it… it felt nice to feel a similar feeling of the same thing that to me is priceless, if you cannot understand me it doesn’t matter, just know that I am finally at peace with me again…
However, you, well that may take time lol HA!!!!
Anywho, enjoy your Friday people…