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Inner Belief in your own self…


A journey of no expectations, unselfish thoughts of one’s self by being honest about how you see the world and then having a little bit of selfishness by saying “I really like you, I enjoy your company, I actually love your whole entire living spirit”.

That little paragraph above is the most effortless emotion and feeling in my heart and soul and it is easy to feel it, say it and what a relief my inner self-belief is still present the funny thing I would like to share with you, is this!dancing

I never, ever, felt that it wasn’t, get out of here…

How do I explain the above emotions that I feel deeply, that is really hard for me to put it in a sentence, sigh!

Sometimes, your values obviously as time passes they rise and they fall with every moment of your existence or experience I should say, a bit like that old negative emotional sadness of being let down,  feeling real, again?

However, the pain in your past only occurs to those that cannot understand you or are so selfish and negative, insecure, I could list them but, for some reason these days if I list a negative thought, it does bring me down.download (3).jpg

But, the difference is I notice it and I let it go now!!

And guess what I can breath and smile and laugh and feel better about me and now it is okay if others don’t I am happy for me, yay at last!

The last month or so … my poor body, I felt tired, old, run down so damn spent, I really had no more gas in the tank!

Stress and your environment will definitely kill you, the age you and damn well, run that body down to just about empty and looking pretty shabby!

The heat in Australia is like shit a brick, Hot as Hell, but, I love it however, I do love airconditioning too 🙂203c226d99520dfbd454b6b999abcd60--google-images-do-want.jpg

I have these amazing overwhelming moments of “please mother of this universe don’t let me do this solo, I am begging you, I know I would be able to but, a tiny bit of hope glimpses in and warms my heart as says, here Franny, I am giving something kind to you back will you take it…

I give you a one or two like-minded, kind, never hurt you or you them, to share your wisdom, understanding, love, trust, endless good feeling of hope and joy until the day you all die!

And the tears of joy and that relief of feeling, at last, we can be ourselves and enjoy what is left without fear, without judgement without feeling that someone is going to hurt anyone again that too I is the best gift I could give myself and those that deserve it too.817nvQgfBcL._SX522_.jpg

A family isn’t always about blood it can be if you’re lucky, however, if you be the best you can be by just being honest and real, never perfect, we can all have warts and parts of ourselves isn’t that great I know, I am a shit head hehe

But, that isn’t the point of this post it is that thought of being able to believe in yourself and if by any stretch of the imagination being able to have a bit of hope for others too.

This isn’t really what I wanted to say but, who cares… you get the gist….of it… it felt nice to feel a similar feeling of the same thing that to me is priceless, if you cannot understand me it doesn’t matter, just know that I am finally at peace with me again…

However, you, well that may take time lol HA!!!!

Anywho, enjoy your Friday people…

Why Drag Queens are Important for Society


It is all about the Drag… let me entertain you about our past years 20 years in fact… taking those back to those times…

It certainly doesn’t stop the glamorous drag queens that you might’ve seen at your local Pride parade or The Court Hotel in  Perth,  from going on being themselves.

 TIME FOR A BLAST FROM THE PAST…. 1997-1999

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Not only do these high heeled and glitter-clad Queens prove some undeniably fun entertainment, but drag queens also represent the need for change in social stigma as well as the gender binary that is still enforced in the world today.

I personally think they are simply beautiful individuals with alot of talent, put most women to shame to be perfectly honest especially these day…

When I was a fag hag in late 1997-9 I must admit they always made me go wow, in totally amazement they are the best people you will ever meet.

A long time ago or not so long ago the times of Electra and from my memory was another one Named BarbieQ, Carlotta??? if my memory recalls, apart from that it was either trade night on a thursday night or house parties with good music and alot of boys with other boys.. many parties…

TRADE ON A THURSDAY NIGHT @ 02’S

I do remember those days at Trade one a Thursday night, watching my dear friend Mark Qxxxx who had an alas his real name was Stef, dated him a few times even though I knew his real flavour was males, males, males.

Whichever, I loved it back in those days.. the clubs where gay and the straight clubs where straight.. no offense but, I prefered the gay clubs being gay.. cuz, it was a hoot and kept those straight opinionated men out…

Adian, “oh, where out thou” , Jason, Lisa, Mark, Steph, GG, Glenneth, Prozac, CLinton, Monkey, Sammy, Diego, Daniel, the posh bois, Tim,  oh gosh, so many that I loved and now cannot find… and to many more that I cannot recall anymore due to loosing there contact I will try and locate those wonderful beautiful times of fun, dance until you drop and smile until your face could not take it any longer…

Love lil’gal, fifi, franny xxx

 

I wish Labels would go away…

Labels like ‘gay’, ‘straight’, ‘female’, or ‘male’, just don’t fit-  nor matter – in the world of drag queens, labels like Moschino and McQueen do, however, matter quite a lot.

I hate, detest, revolt, every word under the sun LABELS, take away the damn labels and put us all as SEXUAL…. help with bullying with children at schools…

 

Anyway, back to DRAG QUEENS

Drag Queens are Beautiful, to say the least, I remember a very long time ago, when I was at the Court Hotel, that I was not allowed to go into the ladies if other LADIES, wherein there, they stood 7 foot tall and they if I can recall, “the door was either locked or manned no go into the loo….

So, I did recall testing this fact… yes, indeed, I was told to leave until they were all finished.. plus, apart from thinking OMG, well, I was on their turf at the time…  Our toilet time now piss off…

WOAH, lol, fair enough, taller, priettier, where really men, so not going to argue with them.. plus, that was 1997 back in those days…

Drag queens thrive to push the envelope of gender and force the audience to realize the extensive complexity of gender representation and sexuality.

It will never just be male or female; it goes deeper than appearance, and drag queens are a walking and talking symbol of that idea.

  • Beyond their bold makeup and ridiculous flexibility (that I still envy time to time), drag queens are standing up for the right to play and tease with gender and strip away the ‘traditional’ American views of what gender is.

So before any Kardashian ever broke the internet, drag queens have been breaking down borders and rules since day one.

These Queens are the change that we need in this world, to shape a society that breaks the gender binary and offers a colourful array of what each human wants to be in this world.

Plus, us women need a good kick up the gooohooosie…. get your heels back on ladies, and go back to being women…(talking about women who wear flats and stupid nighties to clubs these days..)

Whoopsie… did I just say that…  Enough of me… Franny gaL XXX

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Me in the middle all those years ago…

Don’t be a Drag, just be a Queen!

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This is now the time to be present and begin this Journey today..


Lets talk about being Present within yourself and within those that you share you lives with socially and explisitly, without judgement, bullshit, just enjoy and have so bloody fun..

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They blame you instead and think it is funny….

We do deserve to be ourselves… we are not caged animals..are we??

Your journey, my journey, the popes journey we all have them and those that understand what that means in fact understand we all have limitations in our lives, however, this isnt about limitations…. I am talking about no LIMITATIONS.. going forward….

In fact let’s be real for a moment

We get to a point in our lives that we go on our personal journeys some include people that are the same mind set.. you would hope… some prefer to go naked and find new ones… some love that same simular smart mouthed larikin… I am one of those.. so is my hubby however, we also love to socialise with new exciting people who love life..

So, let’s shift and start doing because we should now be ready to walk side by side and enjoy life, right?life-quotes-inspiration-i-just-want-friendship-we-have-something-so-special-and-both-be-through-so-muc

I am ready, I know my hubby is… are you?

I had the best weekend and the efforts of my own self was firstly the most powerful, gob smacking, speechless, and devine moment I have had thus far…

In fact, I wanted to just stop and breath in this amazing awareness that I experienced I felt safe, I had no noise, I thought for one moment that my age was back as a young women where I seemed to really let go of things easier… or at least quicker..

However, this feeling was much better… Let me tell you

So, what is it going to take to be present and take that leap of faith?deep-connection-friendships

So, for me, my gorgeous, husband and hopefully anyone else that wishes to put up with our bad inappropriate behaviour, opinionated beliefs, excellent humour, and frankly we are pretty friggin annoying… couple but, yes any other that wishes to jump on board our pink jumbo elephant then by all means.. do so…

So from today which indeed I believe that we are all ready.. to have so bloody fun or at least get dressed up go out into this perth city and find a bar, view, beach, bottle of wine and have some really good fun.

Laughing, is the best start to any journey with those that you care enough about, get along with and have no limitations to expressing whatever you wish to say, feel, joke about with life can and will always be as hard and difficult as you wish… nothing is garenteed and that is what our entire life has been based on…

Below is all those emotions that we tend to have within us… have a look.. and embrace, and trust yourself… nothing to be lost… everything to be loved..

………………so what are you waiting for?? I am so excited to walk with a better skip rather than hesitation anymore.. done and dusted… let’s go and have some bloody fun… okay ?

BTW… nice choice of music xxx

Songs for Friday…. Enjoy…


Songs For Friday… Enjoy

I will add more to the list below.. so Enjoy your Friday click onto the link above until I fill this one for you all to enjoy and Rock on Ladies and Gents…. have a great weekend…

We all Need ……….A… MAJESTIC……………Let’s face it…

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Below is a bit Trippy…. not bad though..

Blast from the past

 

Different….. leave this one for last…. not bad lyrics..

ALways a bit of Calvin…… it’s Friday

Happy one… YAY

 

Wow… Brits and Calvin……. nice… different….not sure….what do you think???

 

OH, Gosh yes, MADONNNA….. oh dear me…

 

Something sweet…. awwww

 

“Remember, life happens for us, not to us.”


As you well know I do blog a lot about Sexual Health, Mental Health and at times I fluff up areas with Trivia as we all do from time to time..

However, when it comes to our hearts then anything I do write is pretty well on the mark for me…

  • I do believe in Destiny an Energy that is inbuilt in our bodies and souls, I believe in people who are drawn to you has a reason for them and us.
  • I believe in our own journey’s that take us too our true selves and I believe in our faith in ourselves or even what you believe in to move forward, and that we can be the best we can…
  •  I believe in these positive things is that is all I can believe in now… I can now let go of what was and walk forward with what is going to happen…

And for that I am excited to know what that is.. without all that toxic crap we band-aid ourselves with drugs, alcohol, crap we tell ourselves over and over because that is all we understand and know…364f4257202a9ff417f091ce94c7b85a.jpg

I can let go and now I can see better with each step I walk slowly forward in understanding that the past is where it should stay.. and the future how wonderful that looks from afar…

Life is only for such a short time and we must live it with each day as it was your last day on this earth, this does not mean you have to do anything out of the ordinary, however, even if it is a short blurb on a blog a walk down the street where you live, a stroll down the beach as you walk you can feel the sand in your feet.. anything that gets you to feel better about “yourself”.

Don’t be so hard on yourself, we are only human and try to look at life with a “Big Open Smile” rather, that oh, why did I bother getting up today, saying that changes your frame to think negitve so, turn that frown upside down and Smile with teeth, glowing brightly.

Here is a short video of something I found… it’s actually quite good (the voice is annoying however, have a watch it might help you or some of you)

Turn your frown upside down and SMILE 🙂

How to Move on, Letting it go, it isnt a bad watch at all…… enjoy!

 

 

I am me… if you do not like me.. then see that door…


What can I say about this title many things….. Let me tell you….

Thus far, far out and how amazing is life!!!

We often forget who we are, how we got here, what moments was it that made us “Stop and Smell those bloody Thorns”.

Why the thorns, good question, why the hell not..

Nothing in life is easy or smooth let’s face it and if you say it is then we must be lying right!

So, in saying that I decided to say what I said, because I did!

Life is what it is.. It is what you want to make of it.. I cannot say to you the answer as I am still finding it myself..

And there is nothing wrong with that..

However, if you wish me to answer it.. it is made up on mistakes, winnings, many happy times, many sad times, disappointment, happy ever after times, its made of children that will put a smile on your face, loving moments that we all cherish, it is made of sadness when someone breaks your heart for the first time and it is made of many shades of blue, green, pink, yellow, red, orange, and I could go on.

  • It is also made of regrets of not being there for those that I should have been… with that I am soulful sorry (my son)580616_10151758483017361_261523703_n

What do I love the most 

I love myself (shit that was hard to say)  it has taken a very long time for me to say those words, I love my partner who has been by my side so many years, it is made up of dear friends I say it with the (s) why because it is more than 1 which is more than most have..

 

I love these people because they love me and that is enough no more than how that is because I am lucky..

Why do I want this?

Because I do…

What is it that you regret?

Many, Many things in my life… which is mine and if you wish to find out what, then you walk in my shoes and then ask me the same bloody question!

We can have a crystal ball tell each other I know better than you.. however, what is so significant about your life that you are better and more knowledgable what if you’re not?

Seriously speaking come on !!!

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And my dear bloggers it is that easy… if life was easy and we didn’t hurt, cry, if we had no error if everything in this life was that easy would you say… I know better?

Far out, even god would not say such things….

My suggestion is this….

Smile, love, and listen don’t be foolish if you have any business telling others who you think they are and how you think they should live , well good luck with that!

I would hate to be you if you did say such things to another!

Who wants perfect, anyway!

Not me!!!!

This is who I am:

  • I am 50 years old
  • I am in a loving and giving  relationship of 21 years
  • I make mistakes
  • I do very well at times
  • I am a very loud and opinionated female
  • I am a survivor
  • I am a mother
  • I also have good, bad, and darn right not the best at times with the above
  • I am human
  • I am true to myself and my partner, friends and family
  • I make mistakes just like everyone else and I am happy with that…
  • I love my 1 or 2 friends that I have on this earth
  • I am incredibly stubborn
  • I love with every bit of my being
  • If I say something real to you, you better believe it that I am telling you the truth
  • If I tell you my story, your lucky
  • I am a proud female who adores people for who they are not what they can give me back
  • I have no expectations of anything
  • But, I do love, and I do it with every part of my body, soul and faith

So, the question answered is Submission is about pleasing ourselves and those that are worthy of my being this isn’t a given this is earn and I am blessed with who wants to be my friend…

So, Who are you?

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Emotional Journey … if I can do it.. so can you?


I wonder often if we ever really live our lives fully?

I often think if we did what we should do or feel would it be easier?

I think the main problem with us as people we tend to over think or perhaps overreact with our emotions and we end up doing the opposite end of what we should be doing with ourselves.

We should act on what we do and be more present with those that we care about however, sometimes feeling something and doing it is just what we should be doing.

I know I am sounding like this “Delhi lambi”, spelt wrong I know, that is exactly what we are acting like fools and doing things opposite end of what we desire to do..  🙂

For example:

Our emotions and our true selves are one are we that scared of rejection that we don’t do what we should do?  Or are we just inept of love, desire, lust, excitement, endorsement, a soul lost in a bowl of Heinz soup with many ABCD and even E’s from our alphabet soup that we loved to eat as kidz!

Strange isnt it!
Or really is it?

I cannot live like being unemotional and so strict in being numb with my emotions, I am an emotional female that loves, the idea of loving and I wont change for the world!

If I had to be real it would be who I am and much, much more and those that I would love to join would be those that want to be part of something more, and to me that would be awesome!

However, we cannot move mountains and mountains cannot be built-in a day or a week or even a few years… if it was up to me it would be but, I am not someone who can make people move quicker, faster, I can only be me and if that is all I am to anyone then I guess my life is going to be a bit solo and a little bit lonely.hqdefault

To love is to be present within your soul and to be open to possibilities of hopefulness and openness who know what tomorrow brings.

What is your thoughts?

Do you think we are that fragile that we cannot open up and say it, do it, feel it, or even live it?

I want to live who wants to join me?

I want to be love who wants to join me?

I want to experience live with people who care about each other does that sound so bad?

What is it that we seem to be missing on this journey?

When will you open up and show me your heart?

 

SONGS… Just because well, I like you!! Here are two for you xxx


Wild Things…… by Cisco…

Creepy However, nice tune… Serial children want to kill other children…but, it was different and odd all the same… enjoy!

 

Daft Punk …… Around the World

 Beyond their years… Must agree however, love this clip they where the best and still are… enjoy the most interesting choreographer

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Play together.. so you can Stay together…


 

Life is amazing and scary and many, many things the most terrifying moments for me is to be present… Why?

Because of never being able to have the present real.. expectations are never true, the expectations of surprise and happiness taken away within an instance and feeling forever feeling never, ever enough for anyone!

This song I will do anything normally not to listen to it because frankly it means I have to listen and be present and never, ever, ever, be belated… why?

Because it is never, ever, true, it’s made up of dreams, beliefs, that beautiful experience most people get that is called LOVE…

It reminds me of being that little girl at Christmas and my expectations where so pure and that big huge SMILE of thank you.. that I feel loved..

That feeling of Love and Love looking back by just a smile, glance and that most precious feeling of a warm and loving hug.. knowing you are the only thing in the world that matters…

That it me is a dream that one day I had hope would happen to me..

 

Time…….. the beat is like a heart, beating harder, louder, deeper, purer, it has no end and randomly beats when it sees the eyes of the one that it loves and that loves it…

Pure love is my hidden passion where it’s full of smiles, ease, peace, harmony, endless talks about living, loving, seeing, travelling with the earth, growing and forever being real….

Listen to the beat of the song below…. simply beautiful… these words everything I write going forward is how I will write……how I feel….. how I love and most of all how I see things through my own eyes……………… I am me being me there is no reason, why’s, who’s and when’s that is just now………………………………………………………………. x

 

 

 

Beautifully said…….. I want to live gorgeous video of seduction, sexual thirst, hunger, desire and passion………

wicked hot nights sweting, dripping, with panted breaths, longing to hear, feel undressed, skin on skin….

naked and desired….

Now that is how you fuck……

 

Time for me to be me again….. I cannot just be… I require more…that this… don’t you agree…

Play together.. so you can Stay together…


 

Life is amazing and scary and many, many things the most terrifying moments for me is to be present… Why?

Because of never being able to have the present real.. expectations are never true, the expectations of surprise and happiness taken away within an instance and feeling forever feeling never, ever enough for anyone!

This song I will do anything normally not to listen to it because frankly it means I have to listen and be present and never, ever, ever, be belated… why?

Because it is never, ever, true, it’s made up of dreams, beliefs, that beautiful experience most people get that is called LOVE…

It reminds me of being that little girl at Christmas and my expectations where so pure and that big huge SMILE of thank you.. that I feel loved..

That feeling of Love and Love looking back by just a smile, glance and that most precious feeling of a warm and loving hug.. knowing you are the only thing in the world that matters…

That it me is a dream that one day I had hope would happen to me..

 

Time…….. the beat is like a heart, beating harder, louder, deeper, purer, it has no end and randomly beats when it sees the eyes of the one that it loves and that loves it…

Pure love is my hidden passion where it’s full of smiles, ease, peace, harmony, endless talks about living, loving, seeing, travelling with the earth, growing and forever being real….

Listen to the beat of the song below…. simply beautiful… these words everything I write going forward is how I will write……how I feel….. how I love and most of all how I see things through my own eyes……………… I am me being me there is no reason, why’s, who’s and when’s that is just now………………………………………………………………. x

 

 

 

Beautifully said…….. I want to live gorgeous video of seduction, sexual thirst, hunger, desire and passion………

wicked hot nights sweting, dripping, with panted breaths, longing to hear, feel undressed, skin on skin….

naked and desired….

Now that is how you fuck……

 

Time for me to be me again….. I cannot just be… I require more…that this… don’t you agree…

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